I know it's been a while. No one probably even read my first entry. How do i get people to read my blog? huh???? Nothing more happening in my life. I am constantly confused about everything, I don't know what I'm doing, where, I'm going, why I'm living and who's worth it.
Whats the point anyways?? Why am I here? This is too weird I dont get it... Does anyone get it.
Aw well fuck that I'm going to have a cigarette. I love intoxicating myself.
Fuck I may sound EMO nut i am not!
Trust me. I am just the victim of perpetual Rainy Days... My Other Self
There is Purple Orchid which is the one everyone sees and the one I wish i was. And then there is Rainy Days. The sad, lonely, pathetic young woman waiting to be loved (saved from my own misery)...
Ugh... Intoxication time now!
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I'm reading your blog for the first time. Thanks for sharing it. I will check in often.
Mike(mg from ash)
its hard putting up a double front... i did it for years. there was the happy confident me thst people saw. then there was the real me finding it hard to deal with life day by day, i loved taking drugs and drinking and smokingbut not even my close friends or family knew this.. when i met my gf (now soon to be wife) i though she would help... nope still felt alone still did stupid things even without her knowledge... last year was a low point. id been out drinking she came home we argued... she tried to leave i tried to hang myself. didnt work of course. it wasnt so much a revelation or a turning point thats making life better. it just is, im begining to accept lifes shortcomings. and accepting my place in life. i got a dog. and n ow we just go on long walks, its nice.
dunno if this will help just thought id share my experiences.. and your the only one ive ever told
Thanks for your comment... iz appreciated.
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